11 Things You'll Never Know

I.
I wasn’t ready to
Tell you that but
I did anyway.
And someday I’ll be
Glad I did.

II.
Sometimes I wonder
Who you’ll turn out to be.
You’ve changed so
Drastically that I don’t know
How to stay close to you
Anymore.

III.
Sometimes I think I hate you.
Then you say something
That makes me change my mind.
I wonder which feeling
Is really for you?

IV.
I don’t regret leaving you
And moving on.
It wasn’t worth
Me staying where I was
And suffering like that.

V.
I don’t feel as
Close to you as
I do to everyone else.
But I want to be.

VI.
I’ve had dreams about
You and I wonder
What they mean.
I wonder if they
Mean more than I think
And if I’ve been looking
At the wrong person
This whole time.

VII.
You work too much
And I miss how things
Used to be.

VIII.
I keep doubting myself
And it’s because
Of what you said to me.
I wish I’d never
Listened to you and
That I didn’t have to
Take everything to heart.

IX.
I always thought you
Treated me unfairly.
I still think that.
But when someone told me
What you said…
It was good advice
That I still remember.
It’s probably the only
Good thing I remember you saying.

X.
Yesterday I wondered where
You were.
I don’t remember your face
Or anything we did together
Because we were so little
When you left.
But I remember your name
And I still wonder about you.

XI.
I thought we’d be best friends
Forever.
And I was surprised
When I found out how much
Both of us had changed.
And the time since we talked
Keeps stretching further.
I wonder if I’ll ever talk to you again
Or if you want to talk to me at all.
And I wonder if I still
Miss you?